:: Love and Mathematics ::

Well is it love, big love, or great love? 
What do you mean?
Well, love you get over in two months, big love you get over in two years, and great love, well great love... changes your life. So which one is it?

So today I wrote a song for you
Cause a day can get so long
And I know its hard to make it through
When you say theres something wrong

So Im trying to put it right
Cause I want to love you with my heart
All this trying has made me tight
And I dont know even where to start

Maybe thats a start

Cause you know its a simple game
That you play filling up your head with rain
And you know you are hiding from your pain
In the way, in the way you say your name

And I see you
Hiding your face in your hands
Flying so you wont land
You think no one understands
No one understands

So you hunch your shoulders and you shake your head
And your throat is aching but you swear
No one hurts you, nothing could be sad
Anyway youre not here enough to care

And youre so tired you dont sleep at night
As your heart is trying to mend
You keep it quiet but you think you might
Disappear before the end

And its strange that you cannot find
Any strength to even try
To find a voice to speak your mind
When you do, all you wanna do is cry

Well maybe you should cry

And I see you hiding your face in your hands
Talking bout far-away lands
You think no one understands
Listen to my hands

And all of this life
Moves around you
For all that you claim
Youre standing still
You are moving too
You are moving too
You are moving too
I will move you

9.50am. When i knew they had gone.

We can do some wrecking here
Til a little colour comes into your face
We can do some wrecking here
Find something to love in this broken place.

The most annoying thing
is to put so much effort into something you believe to be important to then not be taken seriously.

I'm looking forward to laura's 21st party on friday. I'm not however looking forward to saturdays history of crappy art exam at 9.30 the next day! What kind of people do that?

3 exams down, 2 more to go.

Move out into my new pad next weekend, its going to be hilarious me rach laura and domi moving carpets and book cases ha ha. Unfortunately paul cant help as he is away that weekend with all his family.

Family life is calming down again, i hope.
Work is stressful but fun. My summer todo list is getting longer.

1. Brussels
2. Book New York flights
3. Book up last min sun holiday for a week.
4. Get out overdraft.
5. Camping.
5. Complete at least one canvas.

Ok bed time x

Uni is pretty much done with for the year, just got 4 exams to pass before summer can begin. Stressing a little as my motivation is running low, working full time sucks the life out of you.

Got metrics new album the other day havent stopped listening to it, going to see them in the oran mor soon. Had a few gigs recently its been good, i forget how much i enjoy live music.

Looking forward to the end of the month and moving into my new pad, promised myself once i had enough space i'd get back into my art.

Its such a nice day today, shame its staying in and studying for me!

I'm going to start updating this now i have an app on my phone.



Peace out x

 

So university is back, thank the heavens above.
Coolest tutor ever for software engineering, the course sounds totally amazing, shame the other two don’t sound as good. Already spent a fortune on course books, need to buy another two.  It’s weird to think 2nd year will all be over by the end of March. Feels like it's hardly began. Too fast.

Paul finally found a flat, hopefully moves in by the weekend if everything goes according to plan. This will make things a lot easier however anxiety can’t help but get the better of me.  Another change.

Rachel bought me an awesome movie for my christmas, "Life as a House". Really lovely story.

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There are times when life calls out for a change. A transition. Like the seasons. Our spring was wonderful, but summer is over now and we missed out on autumn. And now all of a sudden, it's cold, so cold that everything is freezing over. Our love fell asleep, and the snow took it by surprise. But if you fall asleep in the snow, you don't feel death coming. Take care



Today:
Work was stressful, but i'd lie on a bed of pins if it meant hanging with those three girls.
The organisation of the New York trip began.

Tonight:
Was absolutely rotten, I'm not going to waste my time thinking about.

This week:
overall good, got most my life sorted out in like a week, dentist appt. hair appt. I even cleaned out my document holder.
So getting everything sorted for the great year ahead.

This weekend:
Party/Kushion...Haircut/Cinema...Old friend. 

thought: Growing up is the hardest thing you'll ever do.
mood: let down & hunrgy?

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So 2008 was full of pretty great parts and pretty not so great parts, all of which changed my life (i mean that in the least melodramtic way possible)

My first entry of the year, New Year Resolutions:

• Advance my cooking skills
• Meet new people
• Maybe learn to drive
• Learn to swim (properly)
• Go camping in summer
• Go on holiday to somewhere incredible that i've never been before
• have the best 21st birthday party EVERRRR
• Pass all my COMPUTING exams and get at least one A this year
• Save up to buy that camera
• Save in general, become better with money (get out the overdraft!)
• paint more/sketch more/take more pictures
• make more time for uni
• keep live journal entries short and sweet

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